What should I do?

im debating on if i wanna play basketball next year bc i like playing but like i can play basketball without bein on the team that way i can quit worrying about so much **** like i feel a lot of pressure playin like on the team and everything and now this is gonna screw a good part of my summer up and i wont b able to play in the tournament this summer or practice through june and coach is gonna b mad and hes been a lately anyway and yea i wanna just concentrate on school basket not gonna get me anywhere its just somethin i like to do and i can still do without the pressure i just dont no if i wanna play or not bc if i dont idk if my friends will still like me and stuff at least the majority and a lot of ppl will be pissed at me and yea but my mom cant keep payin for all the medical bills too. (I have tore the ligaments in my thumb, dislocated my shoulder, and broke my foot, all this year)