Why do I always feel worse when I go see my therapist or my shrink?

I saw my therapist today, and I have an emergency appointment scheduled in like 2 weeks for my shrink...this is my second time seeing my therapist (Meridian) and so far, I just feel worse. I've been going threw a really hard time with my 'best friend' (yeah, right...) and I got in a really bad situation where I was almost killed, got beat up, and was pratically d (depending on your definition)...lately I've just been feeling so bad, that I'm not even sure if I want to live anymore and, if it wans't for me dad, I probably would just off myself......my 'friend' told me I'm a ***** and need to stop complaining about my life all the time...and my therapist seems to think that everything is all my fault and the reason why I'm depressed and my life is all messed up is because of me or whatever.....aren't therapist suppose to make you feel better? Than why did I leave today feeling worse, like driving off a bridge, and like I'm a worthless person with no point in living?